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Living Our Unlived Life

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Living Our Unlived Life

“Living our unlived life is the most important task in our mature years, to be achieved long before a tragedy shakes us to the bone or we reach our deathbed. To live our unlived life is to become fulfilled, to bring purpose and meaning to our existence.” - Living Your Unlived Life by Robert A. Johnson, Jerry Ruhl

What life have you not lived? Perhaps it’s a relationship, a career or simply getting to make your own decisions? What did you withhold, avoid, or bypass on your journey toward first-half-of-life-acceptance? Of course, there are many things we can’t “live” in the limited 70-80 years (or 3,500-4000 weeks) of average life-expectancy. But what about the life you could have lived, but for one reason or another, just didn’t?

The Unlived Life is Untapped Energy

The unlived life is less like a bucketlist of things left undone, and more like a reservoir of untapped raw energy (Read more in my a article, How To Address Emotional Energy Leaks. Perhaps traveling the world, for example, was never an option due to personal responsibilities, finances, etc.. But what’s your relationship with adventure, risk, or various perspectives counter to your own? When the unlived life starts to surface, we initially experience it as an “electrical surge” or a “power outage”–either an undefined anxiety and urgency, or a chronic low-grade depression and loss of vitality. Either way, our unlived life doesn’t waltz elegantly into consciousness. It disrupts our current life in service of something much larger.

Ego and the Unlived Life

“We spend our life until we're twenty deciding what parts of ourself to put into the bag, and we spend the rest of our lives trying to get them out again.” - The Long Bag We Drag Behind Us, by Robert Bly

Our unlived life forms as our ego develops (ego is Latin for “I” and can be understood simply as who we know ourselves to be.). This is absolutely necessary! We need a solid ego to meet the personal and social demands of the “first half of life.” The life we don’t live in our ego-formation journey doesn’t disappear, but falls into the “long bag” for a time. 

Depending on the gap between our social environment and our truest self, our unlived life can feel hidden deep in the bag, and feel more risky to engage or even consider. In the first half of life we can usually adequately hide our socially undesirable qualities, desires, and instincts. But in the second half of life, these primal and essential parts of our humanity begin pressing through the cracks. 

Sexuality and Collective Shadow

For example, if your culture valued sexual purity, then your ego likely became devoted to upholding this value through the repression of sexual instincts. If your sexual ethic aligns with your culture’s, then you stand to receive affirmation and a host of other fringe benefits. This is because ego is primarily concerned with getting your most basic needs met, and the fastest way to do this is discover what parents, teachers, coaches, peers etc. value and adhere to it. If the collective consciousness around you represses sexuality, you’ll likely repress it too in order to meet more urgent needs such as food, shelter, safety, and general acceptance.

Sometimes, an individual can become the representative of the collective shadow. The person labeled as a whore, promiscuous, or seductive (almost always women and queer people), becomes the scapegoat for the collective sexual shadow. By becoming the collective shadow, such an individual does not get certain basic needs met. Eventually, the weight of the unlived collective life may crush her. She may spend many years trying to become herself for the first time, or even be crushed under the weight of what’s known as projective identification

The Middle Passage (Mid-life Crisis)

“In the second half of life we are called to live everything that we truly are, to achieve greater wholeness.” - Living Your Unlived Life 

By the time we are adults with solid jobs, careers, mortgages, dependents, partners, etc. the gap reaches an apex, and the symptoms radiating from our unlived life become too much to handle. Panic attacks, deep depression, gripping anxiety, existential fear, spontaneous dissolution of previously held beliefs, and escalated relational discord are common experiences here. We commonly referred to this point as the mid-life crisis.

The mid-life is less like a crossroads and more like a cave; it’s not an arrival point, but a dreadful landscape through which we must pass. It is both a tomb to bury the old, and a womb to gestate the new. It holds everything we need, but looks like everything we fear. This is because our ego formed around certain identities and beliefs, which the unlived life contradicts. Our ego sees the unlived life as threatening, even repulsive to its decidedly one-sided mission of success and social acceptance.

Our Unlived Life is Searching for Us

“[At Mid-life] we often set about rearranging things on the outside [...], but what is really called for is a change of consciousness.” - Living Your Unlived Life

Eventually, we arrive at the threshold of the middle passage. We don’t have to go searching for our unlived life; our unlived life is looking for us, and it will find us. Our work is two-fold:

  • First, examine what no longer brings you life. Be bold in naming those things. When we've found life in a particular spirituality, relationship, career, or experience, it can be hard to acknowledge that it's no longer life-giving. We may try many times over years to resuscitate that "thing," from an ego-centered place. But the Spring of unlived life only emerges as we allow the lived life to properly Winter. Read The Hidden Invitation of Burnout by James A. Pearson for more on this!

  • Second, we must to stay open and receptive to inner-animation. When something is animated, it goes from being a thing, to a being. Animation brings life and expression into something that was previously lifeless. This is the basis of Jung’s anima/animus paradigm. Anima is Latin for soul. Jung held these inner masculine and feminine energies lead us toward wholeness by animating certain unconscious, or seemingly lifeless qualities. What brings you life? What do you enjoy? As Joseph Campbell write, “Follow your bliss. If you do follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while waiting for you, and the life you ought to be living is the one you are living." 

Concluding Poem

I’ll finish with a poem by James A. Person and his book of poetry, The Wilderness That Bears Your Name:

In the end, isn’t this all

That’s required of you?

To drink in what you love,

To concentrate it

In the crucible of your body,

And, finally, to bloom.

Want to Engage Further?

1:1 Shadow Work: Want to take a look at your unlived life, and the places you feel stuck? Dr. Simmons offers 1 on 1 shadow work facilitation for this work. You can email him directly at for more information.


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